Today I am writing on an experience
of ‘guilt’ I was dealing with in regards to being physically ill for a few days.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to feel guilty for wanting to prolong my sick leave, because what if my employer thinks that I am not really sick.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to consider compromising myself just so that I would make a
good impression at my work.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to not place myself and my body first.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear getting fired if I am sick too long.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to not have fully respected and honored my body and the
process it requires to heal.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to have made ‘the rights of my employer’ more than the
requirements of my body as an equal expression of life.
I commit myself to walk self-care and
consideration in regards to my body as myself.
I commit myself to care for my body as my responsibility towards myself and towards life.
Eventually I did go back to the doctor and in hindsight this was a great gift to myself to have given myself extra time to recover and become really well before going back to work. This was a really cool practical application of placing self first.