Yes, the work does take a certain ‘toll’ on me – because to work efficiently one need to
invest oneself wholeheartedly, give oneself completely – but that does not mean
that I am ‘dead’ in the evening. I am still
here. I can direct myself and decide to undertake an activity with which to
support myself and ‘create’ myself – I can still plant little seeds and water
them.
Today I
listened to an EQAFE interview that talked about how mind resistance functions.
I could see then that this is what I have been allowing: to not put in at least
that equal amount of ‘pushing’ that the mind is putting out in reverse in the
form of resistance. If the amount of resistance that the mind is putting out is
greater than the amount of pushing that I am willing to put out in order to
move myself into self-realization and self-change – then the mind will evolve
and grow at the detriment of ‘me’ as the life I could be.
That is not
a desirable prospect. It speaks for itself that one would like to become ‘more’
and ‘grow’ as a self-expressive person and not become ‘less’. ‘less’ than what
and who one really could be as a being, as a person.
What if
there is a way to bring out the best in ourselves?
Check it
out at : www.desteni.org
