I was sitting in the car on a parking lot. I had reached the city of Girona. It was incredibly hot and being stressed I did not think of turning on the airco while I was looking at my phone. I had gone into a gloomy experience of myself, because based on my first impression of the outer area of the city, I had created the idea that the city was basically boring.
As I was allowing myself to sink further into this gloominess, I saw that my partner had sent me a text asking me where I was and what I was up to. In hindsight it was interesting to see how easily I was allowing myself to ‘give up’ and basically create an experience of myself where I felt ‘stuck’. I answered her that I was at the doorstep of Girona and that I was looking at what to do… She immediately wrote back saying that Girona is a beautiful city with lots to see and that I should stay there! The enthusiasm of her message made me realise that I was using flimsy perceptions to influence me in my self-direction. (she had already told me before that the city was worthwhile) I snapped out of my lethargy and started looking for hotels. Soon enough I found a nice hotel at a nice (last minute) discount price in the middle of the city with access to an underground parking nearby.
The hotel in Girona (Condall Hotel) was very pleasant and it was actually one of my best hotel experiences ever, even despite there being no breakfast. The room was bright, neat and clean, with a nice street view. I immediately felt ‘at home’. I was happy and content with myself for being in the place where I was. Again, it is amazing to realise how we can let ourselves be influenced by a perception, a small point, which will then determine our total experience, like a veil we pull over our eyes.
The weather continued to be very warm and I
walked to the tourist office in the city centre. I received a map and a rough
outline of what I could expect to find in the city. The rest of the day I spent
walking from one historical site to another. I was impressed by the amount and
the beauty of the sites and in the evening I walked to a jazzcafè where a band
would be playing. I arrived an hour late but the band hadn't started yet. Even
though I was told that the place was 'full' and that I had no 'reservation' I
did not allow that to discourage me. I said in Spanish that it didn't matter
and that I would listen from behind the fence then! (they had build a little
fence around the outdoor seating area) The lady at the entrance then proceeded
to give me one of their foldable chairs anyways and I set myself down just next
to the fence, being able to perfectly see the concert and enjoy the music. I
had a great time.
Because Girona was fairly small (compared to Barcelona) I projected that I should also make some excursions by car left and right. By looking on the internet I found a small beach (Platja Fonda) that seemed fun to drive to and that’s exactly what I did the next day. I got up early enough to make sure I would find a parking spot and off I was…
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