Through my
self-investigations of the word control – I came to a point where I ‘saw’ how I
had lived control in separation of myself as something external, as previously I could not
relate to the notion of me living ‘control’ in a constructive manner.
However,
after I wrote out my experience with the word – which was mainly ‘negative’, (where it is related to either me suppressing myself or apparently 'being suppressed by others'.) I
came to a point where I had sufficient clarity to redefine the word. I defined
it as follows:
“Control is the power
I have to change myself when I see my pattern is ineffective.”
This ‘redefining’
of the word ‘control’ was simultaneously a self-realization: I saw that I can
incorporate control as an approach towards myself that is best for all –
instead of how I had experienced it thus far: as something coming from the
outside.
